1. I do wonder... what happens when you mix Lactas with jello....?



2. Shit. That's what happens. A mush. A disgusting mush.



3. The mush looks oddly familiar... seen it before i think....


4. Ah... that's right... last time i saw it was in a mirror...



5. Shit... red everywhere... i need to be more careful




6. My head feels..... numb. And my chest aches. And i feel like throwing up.




7. I need an aspirin... make that a dozen. How many result to death by overdose?





8. Sleeping pills would work. Got none... fuck.





9. Can't i just get in a come fo the next twenty years? Comas freeze pain too right?







10. I cracked the mirror. Again. Ow.





11. "Why do you cast me away? What the FUCK did i do again? I thought you trusted me... I thought you'd be honest with me. I THOUGHT YOU'D FUCKING TURN YOUR HEAD AND LOOK ME IN THE EYE WIHTOUT FUCKING LYING OR PRETENDING. I thought you were the ONE i could trust" ...pathetic...




12. Sore knuckles. Get my pain, will ya? I told you that if the time came when i would wan you to suffer i'd tell ya. SUFFER NOW. Ah... that's right... suffering off your pain.... thats just me.






13. I'm being what? Cruel? Bitter? Asking for attention? IN ONE FUCKING YEAR I'M SINKING IN FUCKING MISERY. IT HURTS. IT FUCKING HURTS. I'M SCREAMING IT TO YOUR FACE THAT IT HURTS MY GUTS. GIVE ME ONE MOR REASON WHY I SHOULD WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE. ONE. BE STRONG? BE FUCKING STRONG? I'M A FOURTEEN YEAR OLD PIECE OF SHIT, WANTING TO SLIT HER OWN THROAT EVER SINCE SHE WAS FOUR. I ASK THAT MUCH? THAT MUCH? YOU CAN'T EVEN BE REAL WITH ME. YOU CAN'T EVEN RAISE YOUR HEAD AND TELL TWO THINGS. I GIVE UP.




14. I need to scream.




15. Ah. I can't. Of course i can't. The drama will be on again if i do. Have a glorious fucking day.